[meme] five things

[citycouncil]

Make a list of five things your pup would like to say to five different people - but don't mention their names. The messages don't have to be secrets.

This isn't limited to current characters within the city limits - feel free to include the ones currently on reserve or pups back home. Other pups are allowed to comment with a guess if they think they recognize themselves. Nothing counts IG, though.

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[myfavoritedream]

I'm afraid of fucking up, but it's worth it, anyway. It's worth it, and I know the last few weeks have been stressful as hell, but underneath all that, I'm happy. Like, really happy. I didn't think that was even possible, but. I guess it is.

Whatever's going on with you, I hope it works out. If anybody deserves someone, it's you.

You've been looking at me like I'm this spoiled brat, guilt-tripping you into doing things my way, and I know you're hurting, I know it wasn't all on me to fix it, but it sucks, that you'd think I was being selfish, not wanting you out there alone with all that grief.

I get it, but I wish you didn't feel like you had to try so hard. You don't have to prove anything to me, and you sure as shit don't owe me anything. I already think you're pretty fucking great, anyway.

You, the way you are, all uptight and all that formality bullshit? It makes me want to see what you're like when you fucking relax and have some fun. I hope you can. Otherwise, I don't know what all the fucking fuss is, about you.

[farfromthesea]

[pylades_drunk]

I think the first one is for Edgar, but I'm not sure about another one.

Doesn't matter. I love that you're happy.

[scarequotesreggie]

1. You're not her, but I think you probably could be? Sorry for being weird, regardless.

2. Please don't disappear, too.

3. You're kinda the worst, huh? I really want you to like me for some reason, though.

4. I miss you, but I'm also sorta glad you're not here to see me like this.

5. Ditto. And that's terrible.

[hitchcockblonde]

[maloscuridad]

1) You have a lot of faith in me being a good person. I wanted to be. But I'm not.

2) I don't worry about the future because I probably won't live long enough anyway.

3) A lot of shit doesn't feel as bad when I'm around you.

4) You see someone else when you look at me but I'm not him.

5) In another life, I'd definitely have it bad for you.

[everymonstrousthing]

I know that.

[formicine]

I think the first one is me, and if so: it doesn't work like that. Nobody is just one thing forever. Unless you write yourself off and don't try.

[bloodyanimal]

I miss you. I miss you every day, with every part of myself, but I don't think about you, like I did. There's a distance there. I suppose that's what moving on does to a person, and if I were a better man, I might feel more guilt for that, but it is what it is. I think you'd understand. I'd like to hope you do.

Take care of your mum, yeah? And listen to her. She's the smartest, strongest woman you'll ever know, I can guarantee that.

I miss you, too, pet. I hope, wherever you are, you've found a bit of peace. You deserve that.

You're one tough woman, and one of the fiercest mums I've ever met. I hope those kids know how lucky they are.

I've been in love a few times. It's happened more for me than my fair share, truth be told. Each time it's been a bit different than the last, and each time I've learned new things... about the world, about life, about myself. Perhaps it's that experience, that patina of age we're both carrying around, but cliche as it sounds, in you I've found a partner. An equal. There isn't a part of myself I wouldn't let you see, and I suppose I've only been able to say that of one other, in nearly two centuries.

[pushbackthedarkness]

1. Never before in my life have I had a friend like you. It sounds rather immature and foolish, a man in his fifties realizing what it's like to have a best friend for the first time, but here we are. It wasn't what I expected when we first met and I know I'm a selfish ass a lot of the time, but I'm grateful for you and for this.

2. It doesn't even have to be pretend, you know. He might have biology on his side, but I like to think nurture plays a role in what makes a real parent.

3. I wish I could give you back the thing you love. Or in its place, something else that steals your heart. All I can do is be here and I hope that's enough.

4. What we do and what we've done is somehow both very different and incredibly similar at the same time. I'm glad to have met you, to have developed a partnership with you. When it comes to this work, I feel like equals, which is not something I've ever had before.

5. I'm already utterly head over heels. I may not always be good at this, but I'm very much looking forward to you making me feel like a dumbstruck idiot simply by looking at me.

[patriotqueen]

I'm sure I don't qualify for any, but I'm glad you're finding purpose and friendship after the ones ypu lost.

[godcode]

1. I know you're out there. We'll meet eventually. It'll be fun.

2. I'm not sure what you want me to do. I'm not sure if this is a part of your plan, but I'm ready and waiting. Always.

3. You've given up. I get it. But I guess someone's gotta leave the light on in the lighthouse, so here I am. This part was never your strong suit anyway.

4. We tried so hard. I tried. This is a set-back, that's all. Because I know you're alive, and we're going to find you, no matter what it takes.

5. Fuck you.

[onlythebranch]

1. For all the shit I give you, I'm pretty sure this is what family feels like.

2. I know you're perfectly capable of it on your own, but I'll pull the spine out of anyone who touches her or you.

3. I liked being your teacher.

4. There's a part of the sun in you, just as there's a part of if in me, and I don't know what the fuck that makes us, only that it matters down somewhere deep. Something significant.

5. When you look at me, for the first time in fucking centuries, I feel like I'm here. Really fucking here. Not this shell of a memory of a legend I was made once, but here in the world without needing offerings and belief and prayer. Being with you makes me back into a man, not just a fucking leprechaun, and to some that might not sound like much, but to me it's the fucking world.

[intherealworld]

I don't think I realized how bad things were with you until I got away from you. I'm okay here. I hope, somehow, you know that. And I hope you come to your fucking senses and get away from those monsters.

I know you weren't trying to hurt me. I forgive you.

Hey, asshole, if you're going to advertise a miracle cure, you should give a girl a heads up about the fucking side effects before she agrees to it. And, you know, maybe stop all that other shit, too.

I barely knew you, but I think about you all the time. I hope you made it out okay, and that you're safe now.

You might be the kindest person I've ever met. That's... not something I take too lightly, these days. And as awful as everything going on up on that mountain was, and as much as I wanted to help everyone, I really couldn't stand the thought of losing you.

[forthsofar]

Yes, I’ve already bought noise-canceling headphones. And I’m not making anyone breakfast if they stay through the morning. Just so you know.

I wish I’d had a friend like you back home. I wish I’d had a group of friends, even, like the one we’ve all become. I’m glad I do now, on both counts.

You’re a much better dance partner than he is. If you were still wondering.

There’s very little that’s particularly interesting about me, let alone magical. Even though I know the more we get to know each other, the likelier it is you’ll find that out…I can’t help hoping it’s not for a while.

You could be related to every devil in the world, and it wouldn’t change a bit of how glad I am to be your friend.

[awickedtime]

You do know that's not true, right?

[awickedtime]

1. I honestly never knew that anything could feel like being around you does. All the time. It's perfect. I love you.

2. I'll take good care of her, I promise. I'll make sure she always comes home.

3. I can't believe that I wasted so much of my life in reverence of you. You're nothing to me anymore.

4. I...think you're beautiful. And I'm not entirely sure why I feel weird about telling you that, but here we are.

5. You weren't as bad as I made out. And I knew what your name was...the whole time. I was just being an asshole.

[forthsofar]

Oh, good grief, number four isn't about me, is it? No, it can't be, that's ridiculous. Forget I said anything.

...but is it?

[very_uninterested]

1. It's a huge relief to meet another former rich person, oh my god, but you have no idea how hard it is for me to just not tell you all about how your life is a super sad movie. But also I think maybe we'll be friends?

2. You sort of remind me of my mother. Which is actually a compliment, because while I don't think of you as motherly, it's not like Moira Rose was especially maternal either. I just mean you've got that same fuck you attitude she has, plus what seems to be the same raging case of alcoholism, all of it hiding something else. Something deeper. Something neither of you want to be out there. Anyway. You're cool, I guess.

3. I think we're actually friends. I don't know, I'm bad at judging these things, but despite you looking like an actress I made out with a few times, I just really like being around you. Plus, the whole vintage thing really works for you.

4. Okay, so I'm very much attached and not at all available, not that I think you'd be into that anyway, but you're just... ethereal. Being around you makes me feel like a dumb, clumsy oaf, but in a charming way? Half the time I just want to watch you and the other half I just want to listen to you talk.

5. I do love you. I do. I'm just bad at real human emotion and I know you know that, since you love me for some crazy reason and you're still here. And now you're here, which is just the greatest thing that could have happened to me and I know our timelines are all messed up, but I'm going to try really hard not to ruin this again. Because I know what I have with you. And I know it's rare. And I know it's not usually meant for people like me.

[stuckonyourheart]

I've told you before that you make me feel right. You still do, in every possible way.

[lost_boy]

1. I think you're what it feels like to have a big sister. I really like it.

2. If she's a big sister, you're a twin brother. I know we're technically not the same age (I'm technically the older one, ha!) but it's not just because we look alike that I feel this way. When I'm around you, there's comfort and familiarity and an ease I'd never had before.

3. I am so lucky to have you as a friend. And you. And you and you and you. I've always had the Lost Boys and they meant the world to me, but I was their protector, not their equal. With all of you, I have something stronger.

4. I got a taste of love once and thought I understood it, but now I know it was only the tiniest fraction of what it can really be. When I'm with you I'm excited and happy and I've never once really felt like I was too weird. I love you and I love the things you make me feel and I love that you're here for me more than anyone has ever been before. (Also I really love making out with you.)

5. If you ever set foot in this city, I will kill you. And if I can't, he will.

[daughterofawolf]

And if he can't, I will. Actually, I call dibs on getting a good hit in either way.

[signed_sabrina]

1. The bar isn't set very high, I know, but even if it were, you'd be the best of them. I'm really lucky to have you.

2. Every single time I've had a doubt, you've helped, through, loved me through it. I keep almost writing that I don't deserve you, but I can't-- because you should have anything you want, and because you wouldn't like that, and because I finally am starting to believe it's not true. You're my light.

3. I never stopped trusting you, even when it hurt. You had my heart so much sooner than I was ready to admit, and I'm so glad I get to tell you about it.

4. I really will do something awful to him if he hurts you. I protect my best friends.

5. Another day, another successful attempt not to bring any sort of Apocalypse. I'd high five you if I could reach.

6(66). I know better than to think it's over.

[forthsofar]

I know you will. He won't, but if he does, I promise you'll be the first to know.

[greatest_sin]

I know you hate it, that I've always wanted to try and stand on my own, but I think this... this time with just me, it's... it's been good for me. A big part of it is not having to deal with the apocalypse of the week, but I feel like I'm finally living for me. But I, uh. I do wonder what you'd think of all of this. If you'd be happy for me. Or if you'd be proud. Or if you'd be pissed at me for the risks I've taken, though to be fair, we've both taken our share of those. Anyway, I wish you were here, man. I know, wherever you are, you're fighting just as hard as you've always done, and a part of me wishes I could be there with you. But more than that, I wish you could be here to meet her. She's... she's great, man, I— Well, you know I'm flying blind without you, man, and I just hope I'm not screwing it all up.

Hey, buddy, I, uh... I wouldn't wish this on you, because I don't know how well you'd handle being stuck in this place, but I miss you. Like, a lot. I wish you were here.

I'd kind of resigned myself to working alone, in this place. Finding someone like you here, it's... it's meant a lot. I mean, somebody with your experience, and your perspective? That alone is rare, but then it turns out we work pretty damn well together. I'm lucky to have you.

Whatever it takes, when the real fight comes, know that I'll be there. You won't have to face it alone.

I'm sitting here, not knowing what to say to you, and I think it's because I want to say too much. And none of it would ever be enough. You've changed everything for me. We met and things just settled into place, your life tangled up in my life, and it happened so naturally it felt like that's the way things were. The way they'd always been. Like we both had room for each other, without even knowing it. And it scares me. It... I'm terrified all the time that I'm going to screw things up, or that I'm going to lose you, but I'm okay with that. I'm afraid of losing this because it's important. Because it's worth it.

[a_regular_bitch]

I'm going to forgive you for being a dumbfuck, because I know now that it wasn't malicious. I really did like working with you.

You're more free than you realize. Do whatever the fuck you want; and know that I have your back. I wouldn't have done that for just anyone.

My actual sibling is awful. I'd take you in a heartbeat, lillebror.

Thank you. For being you. For being my friend. I've trusted you with some of the most important parts of my life, past and present, and I haven't been sorry. Sorry if I bite or scratch you in what's about to happen here.

I love you, and I'm pretty fucking sure you love me, which is more than anyone has ever done. I'm just trying to see if i have the guts to say it, when's the right time. Because all I want in the whole fucking world is to hear you say it back.

[daughterofawolf]

I think one of these is about me, but it's hard to believe, so I'm deciding instead I'm just being stupid and selfish in wanting it to be.

But Jamie would be a nice brother, wouldn't he?

[farfromthesea]

I would have preferred it if your plan or whatever strange designs of fate lead us around, I would have liked it better if I could have lived. But if it kept you alive, kept all the remaining family I had alive, I'd do it again without question.

I hope you find happiness out there. Maybe there's no such thing as being both, but there's definitely places we don't have to be either thing.

I don't even know if I can tell you why I'm as fucked up as I am, the things I did, and that were done to me, and the reasons it all happened. And I want to make you understand her, and us, and you're the most important person I've met here, and she's the most important person from there, not because of any crown, but because she saved my life as sure as you did. I treat things so seriously because every little thing does feel like it's life or death. Could have been. Might be.

I can't believe you all just-- accept me. Thank you.

I think you're the only person who can know what it was like, and if I believed in anything anymore, I'd thank them that you never went underground with him. You brought me back to life, and I never stopped hoping you were safe and happy. When I knew it might be the end of all of us, all I wanted was to go home, where I might find you. I'll-- I'll try not to act a fool.

[formicine]

I hope you fully enjoy that I let you call me bonita, because even I'm a little confused by it.

There are a million things I want to say and I can't make any of them boil down, because half of what makes this so bad is the fact that I can't just say stupid, little things to you anymore. I miss you. I love you. I know you're doing big things back home. Me, I feel like I'm faking it better, these days, but it's still faking it.

I can't know what you're going through, but I get it, too, and I just want really badly to help you be okay. I feel really useless, but I'm here, okay? Even if you just need someone to talk to after work.

I like that we keep running into each other. It reminds me not to be stupid. And for what it's worth, I'm sorry for all my bullshit.

I miss you all too, so much. Whatever you're all doing these days, stretching way out into the horizon. But it's a softer lonely. Like maybe we just all went off to different places after high school and we'll meet up again.

[outofspace]

I still love you. I don't think about you all the time anymore, but I think I'll always love you.

I'm so lucky I have you in my life. It might sound a bit silly to say it, but you're my best friend, and I'm so glad you've found happiness here.

I don't really know you that well yet, but I'd like to. I know how much you mean to him, and... I like what spending time with you brings out in me.

As strange as that case of mistaken identity was, I really like being around you, too. Making friends doesn't come very easily to me, but it feels like it did, with you.

I miss you. Thank you for everything you did for me. I feel... just a little bit more comfortable in my own skin because of you.

[pylades_drunk]

I'm cheating, of course, because this is supposed to be one person per statement, but we were all a sort of whole, weren't we? Even annoyed with each other. I wish you all were here. The ones that have been, but also the ones that haven't, even more. I don't know why I deserve a chance to be someone happier, someone more, someone who trusts better: but selfishly, I wish you could see it.

Don't ever feel badly about being a bit of a mess sometimes. None of us enjoy having minds we have to wrestle, but we take care of each other. And if I can, I want to. That's the point, isn't it, of things like forever? I love you, and if you need me to be strong sometimes, I'd say that's only fair.

I don't think I'd ever have thought myself capable of managing something -- much less something as important as this -- without you needing me to and believing I can. So thank you for trusting me.

I like when you're the first to say I love you in a moment. That's terribly selfish, too, isn't it? but it's not so much that I mind the other way round as that it's a little new from you and it makes me glad you feel safe with it, that I'm a part of it. And -- this is a second thing -- I thought this whole part would be stressful, but it isn't. It's exciting.

I never thought I'd be living alongside the scion of royalty, but I'm unexpectedly glad of it. You remind me much of my friends at home, and I hope this place is a bit of a respite for you -- both of you, really.

[daughterofawolf]

I could never tell you -- at least, not yet -- how much you caring means to me, but it does. I honestly don't know what I'm to make of it: no one's ever cared for my safety or my feelings like you, not quite. I want it all, so much, but I don't know what to do with it. I still think I shouldn't have called you, back there, and I want to make it up to you, and I don't know how.

I already know I hate being a bit in love with someone who doesn't have the slightest idea, but here we are. I just want you to be happy and all right. And maybe to kill anyone who hurts you, but we're working on that.

You're one of my best friends, and even better as an ally, and I'm glad you're here. And I'm glad that we like the same people and that they like us both, for it feels like it could be a bit of a family. Like siblings, all of us, somehow, even though we're from such different places.

Someday I want to tell you who I am, really, to you, but I know I'd lose you and I can't make myself do it.

I'm glad that you've found a home, even if I have a hard time knowing how to behave in one. You deserve it. You're like my little sister, but you're also just fun, and I'm so glad I know you.