To find/have some kind of purpose again. He devoted half his life to the war/the PPDC, and without that, he's just aimless, which makes him want all the more not to be in Darrow. If he is going to be stuck here, he needs some kind of a driving force, something to focus on and throw himself into. (I've got an idea I'm toying with that I just haven't done anything about yet.)
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